Paghahanap

"If you want to achieve peace of mind and happiness have faith, If you want to be a disciple of truth then search."

--Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche

Reciprocal Invitation to the Dance

Reciprocal Invitation to the Dance
by Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

THE INDIFFERENT.

COME to the dance with me, come with me, fair one!

Dances a feast-day like this may well crown.
If thou my sweetheart art not, thou canst be so,

But if thou wilt not, we still will dance on.
Come to the dance with me, come with me, fair one!

Dances a feast-day like this may well crown.

THE TENDER.

Loved one, without thee, what then would all feast be?

Sweet one, without thee, what then were the dance?
If thou my sweetheart wert not, I would dance not.

If thou art still so, all life is one feast.
Loved one, without thee, what then would all feasts be?

Sweet one, without thee, what then were the dance?

THE INDIFFERENT.

Let them but love, then, and leave us the dancing!

Languishing love cannot bear the glad dance.
Let us whirl round in the waltz's gay measure,

And let them steal to the dim-lighted wood.
Let them but love, then, and leave us the dancing!

Languishing love cannot bear the glad dance.

THE TENDER.

Let them whirl round, then, and leave us to wander!

Wand'ring to love is a heavenly dance.
Cupid, the near one, o'erhears their deriding,

Vengeance takes suddenly, vengeance takes soon.
Let them whirl round, then, and leave us to wander!

Wand'ring to love is a heavenly dance.

1789.

Kasama

Labing anim na taon ako nang sinimulan kong habiin ang isang pangarap na pinukaw ng gurong nagpakilala sa akin sa mundo ng panitikan. Ang pagkamulat na ito rin ang naging hudyat ng pag-iiba ng mga kasuno ko sa huling taon ko sa mataas na paaralan. Sa mahalagang transisyong ito ay nakilala ko ang dalawang taong magiging kasama ko hindi lamang noong hayskul kundi pati na rin sa pagharap ko sa buhay. Mahigit tatlong taon ko na silang kakilala noong panahong iyon subalit hindi ko inakalang magiging malaking bahagi sila ng aking buhay. Nakakasama ko na ang isa sa mga pakasam at mga gala noong unang taon pa lamang. Subalit ang isa ay hindi ko naisip na makakasundo ko pala dahil na rin sa malamig pagtuturingan noong mga unang taon na impluwensya ng mga dati kong kasama.

Pinagsama kaming tatlo ng iisang pangarap. Naging daan ang bawat gabing ginugol namin bilang paghahanda sa pangarap na iyon para mas makilala pa ang isa't-isa. Hindi ako natakot na malaman nila ang mga kahinaang nagtatago sa likod ng matapang at palaban kong katauhan. Masaya kaming kumakain ng binatog, mani, pipino o kung ano mang dumaang inilalako sa kalsada habang pinagkukwentuhan ang nakaraan at mga plano para sa kinabukasan. Tinakluban ng ugnayang ito ang lahat ng masasama kong karanasan pagdating sa pakikisama at binigyan ng mas malalim na kahulugan ang salitang "pagkakaibigan."

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Isang paggunita sa siyam na taon na pagkakaibigan.


Malayu-layo na rin
Ang ating narating
Di na matitinag
Ang samahan at pag-ibig

Mabibilang mo ba
Ang mga taong
Lumipas
Sa pakiwari ko’y
Isa lamang sandali
Puno ng liwanag
At dilim
Magkahalo lagi
Ang pait at tamis

Hinarap natin
Ang hamon ng kahapon
Di man sigurado
Ang kinabukasan

Kasama by Bridge

And She Was Gone

"And She Was Gone"
By Emily Kapnek
from the season 3 episode of As Told By Ginger

She chose to walk alone
Though others wondered why
Refused to look before her,
Kept eyes cast upwards,
Towards the sky.

She didn't have companions
No need for earthly things.
Only wanted freedom,
From what she felt were
Puppet strings.

She longed to be a bird. That she might fly away.
She pitied every blade of grass
For planted they would stay.

She longed to be a flame,
That brightly danced alone.
Felt jealous of the steam
That made the air its only home.

Some say she wished too hard.
Some say she wished too long.
But we awoke one autumn day
To find that she was gone.


Some say she wished too hard.
Some say she wished too long.
But we awoke one autumn day
To find that she was gone.

The trees, they say stood witness.
The sky refused to tell.
But someone who had seen it said
The story played out well.

She spread her arms out wide.
Breathed in the break of dawn.
She just let go of all she held...

And then she was gone.